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I Finally Understand Zimmerman’s Supporters

Note: They’re still inbred idiots – and I by no means AGREE with their fanciful depictions of what happened that fateful night – but I understand them… and that is the point. This post contains graphic images. Be warned.

There are some things that you just cannot unsee, no matter how hard you close your eyes or shake your head when an unpleasant vision suddenly creeps into your consciousness.

There was a time when my family wasn’t doing so well financially, so we cut back on a lot of things: spontaneous lunches out, excursions with the kids, and cable television. All these things went on the chopping block in order to live a more frugal life. None of them were true necessities anyway, so that year of ‘deprivation’ went by pretty quickly.

I did a lot in that year. I walked. I ate more fruit. I watched a lot of PBS. And one night, just by chance, I caught a documentary about American history. I have wracked my brain to remember the name of the documentary or at least who it was produced or narrated by, and I just CAN’T recall. I desperately want to tell you what it is so you can see what I saw. I can recall none of these things, but there is one thing I do remember and that was the picture of a lynching.

The lynching of Rubin Stacy

The lynching of Rubin Stacy

In some backwoods town somewhere in 19th century America, a group of White men stood smiling, waving their guns and nooses over the corpses of about a dozen or so Black men. I can’t remember what their ‘crime’ was; these dead Black men. In those days it could have been anything from looking at a White person in the wrong way to petty theft. There’s just no telling. I don’t remember all the details, I will admit, but the point of the story was that they had taken justice into their own hands because the sheriff was taking too long to do so. They subversively and promptly executed these men because it was ‘expedient’, I suppose.

However, upon closer inspection, it was discovered that the bodies heaped there were not all male. There was one woman, with wide, shocked doe eyes lying at the bottom of the pile, staring into the camera. In their shame, the vigilantes apparently dressed the woman as a man, placed her at the bottom of the pile, smiled for the picture, and hoped that nobody would notice.

But someone did… and they made a documentary about it… and that image has stuck with me ever since.

I’m not a man, but I know something of the male ego. There is always this struggle for dominance, and the need to triumph while simultaneously looking heroic in the midst of that struggle. No one likes it when you pick on the smallest kid in the class – which is why we abhor bullies and put boxers in the same weight class. A ‘real man’ doesn’t need an unfair advantage to win. An unfair advantage makes you look weak, and does not play well into the heroic narrative.

This is why George Zimmerman’s supporters have fought so hard to control and redirect the narrative about the night he encountered Trayvon. How can they look at themselves in the mirror and their children proudly in the eye, knowing that they support a child killer? The answer is, they can’t – which is why they NEED to paint Trayvon as something other than a child who was just coming home from buying candy on a rainy night.

My husband says I need to stop engaging in twitter conversations with the masses. It’s not constructive, and the majority of these people are idiots, he said. He is also concerned about the toll it takes on me. I am achingly empathic, to the point where I physically feel the pain of others in my own body. So last night, when I was engaged in a war of words and (dim) wits with four or more Zimmerman supports, I felt myself becoming drained.

“Just put down the phone,” Marshall said.

“You’re right.  I should. I have work to do in the morning,” I replied. “This is a waste of time anyway.”

However, the conversation I had with these people did not leave my mind. Their assertions about Trayvon Martin were laughable at best, and delusional to say the least.

He was NO child.

TM No child

Trayvon Martin was big and strong. He was 6’2”!

Big trayvon

I know this game! It's called "All y'all darkies look alike".

I know this game! It’s called “All y’all darkies look alike”.

He was a gansta wanna be thug and he paid for his life with it.

tm thug

The community was grateful to George Zimmerman because they were tired of the break-ins!


You’ve heard all assertions, I’m sure. There’s no need to go on. They get crazier as the days go by, anyway.

I had to ask myself “Why, why, why do these people keep talking absolute nonsense?” Trayvon Martin was 17 and neither old enough to legally drink or vote. According to the coroner, he was 5’11”, unless he magically grew and shrunk between the time he encountered Zimmerman and was fatally shot. Apparently, he had started putting in applications to colleges and wanted to study aeronautics. There aren’t too many ‘thugs’ with those aspirations. And finally, he was not breaking into anyone’s home that night – unless you believe that that was his intent and you also count a  can of sweet tea and a bag of candy as break in tools. I dunno. Maybe Trayvon could have launched the tea into a window like a grenade and distracted his target with Skittles.

Suddenly, the twitter conversations I was having were not so fruitless after all. When I remembered the eyes of that dead Black woman at the bottom of the pile, it dawned on me: They NEED Trayvon to be a thug, just like those vigilantes NEEDED that defenseless woman to be male. They NEED Trayvon to have been big and strong. They NEED him to be the aggressor in this instance. They NEED to feel that his murder was justifiable.

TM corpse

Look here, you “real Americans”. Get this into your thick skulls; a child in a hoodie doesn’t make him anymore a thug than tying a towel around your neck makes you Super Man.

You will have to live with your shame for your support of a child killer. A man with –unlike Trayvon Martin – a proven history of violence against women; a man whose prejudice was demonstrated through incessantly calling the police on Black teens in the area; and a man who faced termination from at least one job for failure to control his temper. Oh. And let’s not forget a man with the balls to lie under oath about his finances. Or is lying under oath now honorable to you lot?

You should all be proud of yourselves, you “real Americans”.

You are cowards.

You are predators.

You are terrorists.

You are pathetic.

I understand who you are. Will there come a day when you understand yourselves?


This article has 11 comments

  1. David S.

    Listen to your husband. He cares about you and knows what he is talking about. You are not going to change these people, in fact it’s more likely that engaging them will change you into something you don’t like.

    • Malaka

      You probably don’t know how right you really are. This past week I have mean mugged, sneered and spat more than I have in years. I refuse to look at people in the face. They don’t recognize my humanity, why should I acknowledge theirs?
      It has changed me, and I miss the old, comical me. I feel restless and my heart is still heavy. I’m just sick of all of it.

  2. Allison

    Preach. I had a similar conversation with a friend of a friend on Facebook. I was appalled when she actually said that we black people need to get off our high horses and own the fact that “Black commit most offenses” so George Zimmerman was thoroughly justified in stalking and eventually murdering Trayvon. Had the “little thug turd” wanted to save his own life, he should have run away when he found that he was being followed. “There is a God,” she said. “Justice was served.” My insides went cold. I’m still stunned.

    • Malaka

      Oh my God, Allison. That’s breathtakingly evil. Pure and simple. That woman has no humanity.

      You know what gets me about this “black on black” crime as a defense? Is the inherent hypocrisy of it all. ANYTIME you have a cluster of one people group in an area, you’re going to have high rates of crime perpetuated against those people BY those people. And so we have high rates of Hispanic on Hispanic crime in the South West, Asian on Asian crime in the Midwest and white on white crime everywhere else in the country. The aggressiveness with which particular groups are prosecuted vary. A white teen smoking weed is “experimenting” with drugs, but a black teen smoking weed is a thug. Really?

      If anyone needs to get off their high horse…

  3. worshipandswag

    Sadly, David S. is right. Recently I read on an internet site – in unrelated news – about black people being gorillas. Needless to say I left that discussion board feeling like all hrs of documentary and whatever efforts at improving white-black relations are just what it is: entertainment and ratings boosters. But I wonder if reopening history pages or changing the way we tell our history makes any difference in how much change we make. By difference, I mean people who walk the walk not just talking when it comes to equality.

    Again, there’s this saying (don’t remember the person): “all humans are equal but some are more equal than others.” Sigh…

  4. Allison

    It was evil, man. She was on that soap box and would not be moved. What is truly frightening to me is the insidiousness of the hypocrisy; how quickly people cast off their pleasant, everyday, inclusive personas, spew such vitriol and feel thoroughly justified. I can’t quite figure how anyone can see this as anything other than murder. Or why, even if Trayvon was up to something nefarious, that logical, rational thought doesn’t lead any GZ supporters to question why he didn’t simply call the authorities and let them handle it. Hell, cops call for back up. Why did he appoint himself “hero?” But I guess it goes back to what you said in your post. Trayvon has to be vilified for GZ to be venerated. But the human in me, the mother in me, simply cannot reconcile the murder of a child or accept that people hold him responsible.

    I don’t know if you’ve been following the Marc Anthony “controversy.” http://publicshaming.tumblr.com/post/55715208108/baseball-fans-super-angry-hispanic-american-superstar
    It goes to show you just how blissfully ignorant people are. I particularly like the guy who said he didn’t look like he was from NY. What does a New Yorker look like, I wonder? Everyone so quick to anger when a simple Wikipedia search would have nullified all the angst.

    • Malaka

      I saw a headline about the fall out but I never clicked the link. I assumed it was an old story, like the little boy who sang the Star Spangled Banner in the mariachi outfit. Remember that?

      Wow, wow and wow again. Welcome to ‘post racial America’!

      Oh, by the way, there’s no such thing as a “Hispanic”. I just got a good tongue wagging in the comments on my blog about crime from 2 posts ago. Please don’t use the term Hispanic when referring to that group. That’s like calling someone colored… I guess(?)

      • Dali

        No tongue wagging, just a comment with info. You write a thoughtful blog about complex ideas, so I added some info about Hispanic being a meaningless term. It’s good to be specific when we are describing people’s culture.

        • Malaka

          I wrote and posted this before you posted your comments on the previous blog. Not to worry! I will never refer to anyone as “Hispanic” again – or at least I will be more mindful before I do. 🙂

  5. gdanny

    Never for sure will I understand the minds of these nefarious and mendacious humans. Sometimes I feel so sick about acts like these and I ask myself why for sure such acts happen in the 21st century. I am so sick of this racism I see everyday of my life. Was God really wrong to create human diversity? Did he mean to create a super race, does it exist anyway? I agree with everyone, the more you think about this the more mad you get. I guess its part of the strategy for these goons to keep us annoyed so that they get us to react, so as to describe us as thugs, idiots etc. Sorry for you goons, I will not hit back at you. I would help you to quench you satanic desires. I must say though, not all white folks are of this kind, just like not blacks are rapists, thugs etc. Humanity deserves respect.

    • Malaka

      God wasn’t wrong in creating diversity at all. God is the master artist!

      The notion of superiority is a flawed human construct. I need to find you the link to Tim Wise’s explanation on how the “white race” was created. He says there was no White race until slavery in the Americas became sanctioned. Before that there were just the poor and the elite, no matter what the color. You should google it. Very interesting stuff.

      For me? I’m just very careful of who I talk to and where I go. The line in the sand has been drawn, and I’m very much looking forward to leaving this country for these “real Americans”. They can have it!

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